So it’s Friday of the first week and so far I have been pretty surprised by myself, unlike last round I have been up early every morning and it doesn’t feel like a chore, I am really enjoying my workouts, I love yoga and really enjoyed The bend it like bridges Video this morning. I feel very centered. I have been able to resist foods that normally would make me crumble and I have not eaten my emotions.

I made my inspiration board and I love it looking at it e dry day and stuck a quote on the fridge

don’t give up what you want most for what you want today

to stop me from mindless eating. I am feeling pumped hopefully this will keep going and I won’t fall off the wagon so often this round. I think I will also redo my preseason tasks on e a month to keep me on track.

Yesterday could have quite easily have been a red flag day for me there was cake and chocolates on the table in the staff room, even last week I would have grab one of the kit kats to munch on, yesterday I look at the cals on the bag to keep myself in check put it down and walked off, with the realization that I didn’t really want one. It’s just habit.
Then there was the cupcakes for a birthday in my class they smelled so good and the kids insisted I have one and normally I would have smashed it but I sent three home with the birthday child another yay me moment!

Then there was dinner out at the pub normally I would have one if the yummy rich specials, Instead I opted for the 300g rump steak asked for only veges no mash or chips and sauce on the side : ). I only ate half of the steak trying best to stick to my portion and didn’t steal any chips off the kids plates or have a wine. I was very proud of myself.

I still had the compulsion to pick at the plates, my hubby had gastric sleeve surgery 2 years ago and eats very small portions and my kids have been taught to stop eating when they are full which means that she we are out there is always left overs and I feeling like we are going to offend try to make it look like we are more!!! Crazy right but the waitress who is familiar with us asked last night if the food was ok, there was lots more left than usual. Why do I feel the need to eat more to make others feel better, maybe there is a link between the guilt feeling and the eating that comes from wanting to please hmmm.

Looking forward to tomorrow hubby and I have a date day a Tapas cooking class so that is my treat meal. Hopefully I can get through that without going over over board!!