Monthly Archives: September 2013

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50 reasons I want to lose weight

It was suggested by one of the lovely people in out fabulous 30+ crew to write a list of 100 reasons why we wanted to lose weight and I though it would be a great reminder of all the best things about being lighter.
But as this was a daunting tasks I am going to start with 50 reasons and see how I go
1. To run around with my boys
2. To walk into a normal sized shop and buy whatever the hell I like.
3. To not worry about squishing others when sitting in confined spaces like the theatre, airplanes, concerts etc.
4. To feel proud of my body
5. To not feel the need to cover up
My arms and legs at the beach.
6. To not feel self conscious in a swimming costume.
7.to fit properly into all Resturant chairs
8. To be able to squeeze past people to get into a seat and not feel like I am suffocating them.
9. To play on playground with my kids
10.get in rides at an amusement park without worrying if I will fit in the safety harness!
11.to walk into a shop and not feel like I am intruding because nothing in there will fit.
13. To run in the day time and not feel self conscious.
14. To be fit
15. To live my best life
16. To not let my weight hold me back
17. So I can go horse riding
18. So I can get into a normal sized wet suit to swim with the dolphins at Sea world
19. To look better in photos
20. To feel confident and comfortable taking my kids to wet and wild
21. To be able to go up the steps to a waterslide without being completely out of breathe
22. So I can run a fun run
23. So my life isn’t controlled by food
24. So I stop eating my emotion and feel in control
25. So I can walk to minnamurra falls without feeling like I am going to keel over.
26. To have strong muscles and bones so I have good mobility when I am older.
27. To feel proud of myself
28. So my legs don’t rub together when I wearing dresses and skirts
29. So I can wear sleeveless tops and shorts
30. So that my kids can be proud of their mum
31. So I feel like I am worthy of the love that my husband had for me
32. To feel strong self worth and stop feeling insecure
33. To gain confidence
34. To not be afraid to try new things because I am worried about how people perceive me and my weight.
35. To sit on any seat and not worry that its going to break under my weight.
36. To use any ladder or step stool without worrying I am to heavy and it may buckle.
37. To be flexible and strong
38. To teach my kids healthy eating habits
39. To give them and my self an active lifestyle
40. To push my limits
41. To be proud of achievements
42. To motivate others
43. So that I can be self aware and in control
44. So that I don’t feel like people are judging me based on my size
45. So I can dance without feeling self conscious
46. To fit comfortable in a double bed with my hubby if we have to when on hols
47. So I feel good and my body is fueled properly
48. So I don’t have to worry at the age if 33 about blood pressure and heart attacks
49. To be 34 and happy with my body for the 1st time in my memory
59. To have fun

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Other people’s issues!

I am enjoying this blogging thing it has given me a real chance to look at what is happening around me and see it from different angles and this has helped me stay on track. I lost 800g this week brings my grand total for Round two to 2.8kg in 6 weeks that’s almost 500g a week average which is healthy I guess. I am ok with that because I am really in the mindset now of however long it takes I am in it.
This week I has a few moments of clarity about how I react to those around me and stress. I have come to realize that really my reaction and perception of reality are what will make it break me in the end.
I have always been a people pleaser I can’t stand the idea that someone would not like me or think Badly of me and until this year I very rarely said no to anyone!, but as I have gotten more to grips with my self worth I have started to step back and take stock of what is going to enrich my life and what is just making others happy. I have never taken the time to care for myself, I was always so concerned about what other people thought. This is changing.

I have a friend whose Behaviour I was taking very personally, i felt threatened and annoyed by her. She really is a lovely girl but she feels the need to make sure everything is done and done to a great standard, she is a perfectionist and takes care of everyone else, does everything for everyone and she would not think to put herself first.

Yesterday it dawned on me that the reason I felt threatened was because this was the old me, I tried so hard to please everyone else I forgot about me and I was not important, she has taken up the mantle and has become the go to girl!! Not me, cause I am no longer the door mat. Wasn’t comfortable at all, I was feeling very rejected but now I am happy because I have realized that I was not happy being that person.

As Dr Seuss says those he mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind. So I will cull some people from my life or they will cull themselves as if I am no longer important being independent and strong minded then they are no longer important to me.

The other thing that has brought this home for me other the past few months is my beloved rabbitohs. I have supported them since birth born into a household of very avid footy fans but for the majority of my life they have been the cellar dwellers, this year we are very successful and in contention for our first premiership in 41 years, very exciting! But I have copped more flack for being a Souths supporter this year than I ever did when we were losers, so I have come to except that a lot of people have issues with success when it is not their own and no matter what you do you won’t alter their perception of their reality! So you have to alter your own. It reminds me of this quote by mother Theresa another for my inspiration board I think

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Light bulb moments

I had another gain this week but I am all good with that as I had a great weekend away with hubby and over indulged on wine and good cheese and I figure that’s ok occasionally because after all this is a lifestyle change.

A couple of weeks back I had a gain and was so down on myself, I told my darling husband that I felt like crap and was frustrated that I was losing the weight sooooo slowly. He then asked me why did I want to loose weight?, my response was I wanted to be fit and healthy and run around with the boys and also feel comfortable in my own skin. He then responded with but you are fitter than you have been in years, you are running around with the boys and you are making healthy food choices, aren’t you doing all those things why do you feel it’s not working? Hmmm touché

So that got me thinking that really this is all about the journey not the destination, I am not going to get to the magic goal weight and all of a sudden feel better about myself and my body. I need to accept me as I go through this. I am really enjoying my life so much more!, I have more energy and I love that feeling of knowing I am starting to live my best life, still not all that comfortable in my skin but that’s always going to be a work in progress.

On the plus side I am now wearing a plus size 16 comfortable for the first time in many years and I feel so great about that. So I will hold onto that number rather than the one on the scale and just keep going cause eventually I will get to whet I need to go I am defiantly heading in the right direction : )

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When did exercise stop being fun!

“Mummy can I play your exercises too” said a little voice this morning, I was tempted to say to my beautiful 4 year old that mummy wasn’t playing I was doing some hard training!, but to him what I was doing look like playing and I guess that’s what it should be! Something we do to keep fit and healthy but also for enjoyment.
I played soccer with my kindy class on Thursday I ran and i got sweaty and we all laughed out heads off the kids had a ball and so did I. That’s when the thought popped into my head. I then watched all the kids running around at lunch time climbing the climbing equipment, playing tag, skipping, soccer and superhero games which involved running. None of them complained about being tired or saw muscles or no time they were all enjoying being active without giving it a second thought. So when did it get hard??
So this week my plan is to play more!! More running around with my own kids and having fun less watching from the sidelines be a use after all this is what this journey has been about i wanted to be able to run around and play with my kids and I did that this week!! I am no where near my goal “weight” but I am moving in the right direction and getting healthy.
As for weight I lost 1.3kg this week. I discovered my base metobolic rate on the 12wbt website, it is 1970 so I decided maybe my body is in storage mode and I need to quick start it and it worked Cals up to between 1500 -1600. And I even managed to burn 500 cals in one workout something I have not done in months yay me. So feeling good at the moment. My mind frame is starting to get to the right point.

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