I have been MIA for the past year. But with good reason, I now have a beautiful 8 week old baby girl. I watched what I ate throughout my pregnancy, exercised and weighed myself regularly to make sure I didn’t gain to much weight and I didn’t I am almost back to what I was on the scales before I got pregnant. But it’s different now.
When I started this blog it was about weight. That number on the scales and it has gone up and down and plateaued and my moods have done the same along with it. I have learned to love exercise and set myself goals and challenges, I have learned a lot about food and what I should be eating and why.
I am obese still 2 years after making the decision to change that, I know why I love food and I think I put way to much emphasis on it. but I have decided that I am ok with being “obese” for now. Having a girl has changed my perception of my body and how I view it. As I look at my beautiful baby and her chubby little thighs and I want her to love her self, to know her self worth no matter her size.
My body is strong, it can do amazing things, it has carried and grown three beautiful babies, it has helped me feed and nurture them. It has stretch marks and loose skin they are my tiger stripes I earned them, I will learn to love them. I will now nurture my body the same way by nourishing it properly and moving the way it was intended. But also by respecting my head space because that is the most important part of my journey knowing my worth and developing a healthy relationship with food and myself.
And so my journey now has a different purpose and that is to teach myself and my children healthy habits which will mean that they won’t suffer the psychological struggle about their bodies, that they will love exercise and have a healthy relationship with food. That we will all have a healthy respect for ourselves and feel out self worth. And especially for my daughter that what her body looks like does not determine the worth of the beautiful person inside.